BraindumpDiscussion on School Environment and Personal Interactions
Summary:
- The speaker feels ostracized at school, experiencing limited interactions with classmates.
- They believe their different personality leads to classmates' avoidance.
- The speaker discusses their unique learning approach, focusing on process rather than just answers in mathematics.
- They are aware that their advanced vocabulary and quick speaking pace may overwhelm peers.
- A teacher provides individualized support, understanding the speaker's personality, but such teachers are rare.
Content:
For continuation about the topics that we discussed, like what I discussed with my grandma was, we also talked about the situation at school. Like I was so surprised that my grandma suddenly asked about it. We were talking about scholarship, obviously, but suddenly asking me, what's going on in school? Is your classmates bullying you? How do the teachers teach? And just the overall environment, how was I doing? And then I shared that it's okay, I guess. I'm not actually getting bullied. More like ostracized in a way that they just don't really mingle with me. Like, our conversation could be counted in one hand.
It's very limited. I don't know if it's just that they just, we have so different personalities that they just can't casually talk to me because of it. Like, they were already thinking, oh, this person clashes with my ideas, or it's a different personality ideology. That's why I can't just casually share what are my views, because that person will definitely not share the same one. I can understand some people who are like that. But there's also the possibility that I just also seem like I wouldn't really entertain them. Like, I know I have a very, very indifferent passive resting face.
Like, it's very indifferent at times, but also, at times, I just give off the air that, don't talk to me. Like, I honestly want to talk with a few people, obviously. I want to be able to converse with other people, but at the same time, if I think it's completely meaningless, I will also not directly hate it, but kind of be adverse to the idea of it. Like, even the most mundane stuff, I could be interested in it, since I tend to look at things differently. I tend to look at different angles, reflect on even the most mundane things in life.
But at the same time, if we're talking about something that just completely is different from what I'm thinking, even if at times I find it a kind of novelty to understand, to hear a different idea, at times I still kind of hate being exposed to it. So I always have that face, like I wouldn't even give them the time of day. So that might also be a reason to that they distance themselves from me. It could be their own misconception, or it could be because I present myself as such. So what I shared with my grandma was that I am, I was actually praised to be very smart.
It's not to brag or anything, but I know that for such a long time since a lot of people do comment a lot about it. Whenever those limited interactions does come up, people will just automatically, the first thing they said is, you're a very smart person. And maybe that's the most distinguishing factor about me, so I couldn't kind of understand that. And then I shared about what was going on and how considerate one of my teachers are. It's that I have this kind of quirk, or like how I do things. It's kind of similar to math equations.
So a teacher gives you a given, like a number of sorts, give you numbers. Then obviously for other people, they want to know the answer, or they need to know the answer. But the way people prefer it is similar to a calculator, simply typing away the given, even without the full formula, just the situation, the numbers. It could still be automatically counted and then you're automatically given the answer. But for me, with the kind of personality I have, I tend to over-explain because I also tend to share my thought process. It's in this way, in a math equation, I show them the process of how I got the answer.
And it kind of reflects my ideas about stuff. Like I just won't simply accept an answer that was made. Like, I would question, how did you even get this answer? Like, what is the process? What did you even encountered while answering this one? Or while you were encountering this problem, what was going on? I just, I don't just want to see the conclusion, which is very important, but at the same time, the most important thing out there is actually understanding it, actually implementing your knowledge. It overlaps with a lot of ideas in my head. It just becomes a core part of my personality.
That's why a lot of people, especially my classmates, tend to get a little off-putted whenever I tend to talk like that. It's not that I try to become more superior or to just seem smarter. It's that sometimes I use vocabularies that are more advanced or unfamiliar to them. Or sometimes because I am definitely confident with what I'm saying, or at least I have a clear idea of what I'm saying, I talk in a little faster pace than what they are used to or what they can handle. That's why they didn't really, I don't know, they didn't really like hearing my opinions that much.
Yes, they do, I think, but at times hearing the entire process just mushes your brain. It mess up with what you're thinking, right? So again, I'm just assuming things here. They could be thinking of this while I'm thinking of that. I genuinely like my answers or my insights, but at the same time, the over-explaining part, it could get really overwhelming at times. So, yeah, the way that my teacher kind of acts on with that kind of knowledge that I have such a personality is that she talks to me personally. In that way, I can share what I was exactly thinking.
In that way, recitation isn't as hard because my classmates are no longer listening. I'm just talking face-to-face with the teacher. She can get a grasp of how well I understood what she taught while I can freely share something without minding classmates can even follow it because I'm already talking to the teacher itself, or herself, I mean. So the only downside to this is that that teacher is very specific. I mean the term that teacher. It means that not all people out there, not all instructors will understand me and go out of their way to cater to this part of my personality.
She definitely understands that everyone understands differently. They each have their own preferred way of doing things, preferred way of thinking. So I was very grateful, obviously, but in this instance, the only downside to this is such teachers are limited. And I'm already very grateful to finally met one who completely understands me, at least I think so.
- The speaker feels ostracized at school, experiencing limited interactions with classmates.
- They believe their different personality leads to classmates' avoidance.
- The speaker discusses their unique learning approach, focusing on process rather than just answers in mathematics.
- They are aware that their advanced vocabulary and quick speaking pace may overwhelm peers.
- A teacher provides individualized support, understanding the speaker's personality, but such teachers are rare.
Content:
For continuation about the topics that we discussed, like what I discussed with my grandma was, we also talked about the situation at school. Like I was so surprised that my grandma suddenly asked about it. We were talking about scholarship, obviously, but suddenly asking me, what's going on in school? Is your classmates bullying you? How do the teachers teach? And just the overall environment, how was I doing? And then I shared that it's okay, I guess. I'm not actually getting bullied. More like ostracized in a way that they just don't really mingle with me. Like, our conversation could be counted in one hand.
It's very limited. I don't know if it's just that they just, we have so different personalities that they just can't casually talk to me because of it. Like, they were already thinking, oh, this person clashes with my ideas, or it's a different personality ideology. That's why I can't just casually share what are my views, because that person will definitely not share the same one. I can understand some people who are like that. But there's also the possibility that I just also seem like I wouldn't really entertain them. Like, I know I have a very, very indifferent passive resting face.
Like, it's very indifferent at times, but also, at times, I just give off the air that, don't talk to me. Like, I honestly want to talk with a few people, obviously. I want to be able to converse with other people, but at the same time, if I think it's completely meaningless, I will also not directly hate it, but kind of be adverse to the idea of it. Like, even the most mundane stuff, I could be interested in it, since I tend to look at things differently. I tend to look at different angles, reflect on even the most mundane things in life.
But at the same time, if we're talking about something that just completely is different from what I'm thinking, even if at times I find it a kind of novelty to understand, to hear a different idea, at times I still kind of hate being exposed to it. So I always have that face, like I wouldn't even give them the time of day. So that might also be a reason to that they distance themselves from me. It could be their own misconception, or it could be because I present myself as such. So what I shared with my grandma was that I am, I was actually praised to be very smart.
It's not to brag or anything, but I know that for such a long time since a lot of people do comment a lot about it. Whenever those limited interactions does come up, people will just automatically, the first thing they said is, you're a very smart person. And maybe that's the most distinguishing factor about me, so I couldn't kind of understand that. And then I shared about what was going on and how considerate one of my teachers are. It's that I have this kind of quirk, or like how I do things. It's kind of similar to math equations.
So a teacher gives you a given, like a number of sorts, give you numbers. Then obviously for other people, they want to know the answer, or they need to know the answer. But the way people prefer it is similar to a calculator, simply typing away the given, even without the full formula, just the situation, the numbers. It could still be automatically counted and then you're automatically given the answer. But for me, with the kind of personality I have, I tend to over-explain because I also tend to share my thought process. It's in this way, in a math equation, I show them the process of how I got the answer.
And it kind of reflects my ideas about stuff. Like I just won't simply accept an answer that was made. Like, I would question, how did you even get this answer? Like, what is the process? What did you even encountered while answering this one? Or while you were encountering this problem, what was going on? I just, I don't just want to see the conclusion, which is very important, but at the same time, the most important thing out there is actually understanding it, actually implementing your knowledge. It overlaps with a lot of ideas in my head. It just becomes a core part of my personality.
That's why a lot of people, especially my classmates, tend to get a little off-putted whenever I tend to talk like that. It's not that I try to become more superior or to just seem smarter. It's that sometimes I use vocabularies that are more advanced or unfamiliar to them. Or sometimes because I am definitely confident with what I'm saying, or at least I have a clear idea of what I'm saying, I talk in a little faster pace than what they are used to or what they can handle. That's why they didn't really, I don't know, they didn't really like hearing my opinions that much.
Yes, they do, I think, but at times hearing the entire process just mushes your brain. It mess up with what you're thinking, right? So again, I'm just assuming things here. They could be thinking of this while I'm thinking of that. I genuinely like my answers or my insights, but at the same time, the over-explaining part, it could get really overwhelming at times. So, yeah, the way that my teacher kind of acts on with that kind of knowledge that I have such a personality is that she talks to me personally. In that way, I can share what I was exactly thinking.
In that way, recitation isn't as hard because my classmates are no longer listening. I'm just talking face-to-face with the teacher. She can get a grasp of how well I understood what she taught while I can freely share something without minding classmates can even follow it because I'm already talking to the teacher itself, or herself, I mean. So the only downside to this is that that teacher is very specific. I mean the term that teacher. It means that not all people out there, not all instructors will understand me and go out of their way to cater to this part of my personality.
She definitely understands that everyone understands differently. They each have their own preferred way of doing things, preferred way of thinking. So I was very grateful, obviously, but in this instance, the only downside to this is such teachers are limited. And I'm already very grateful to finally met one who completely understands me, at least I think so.